hope

Everything I am learning more and more about myself. I'm still figuring out who my true friends are. I get lost almost everyday mentally or physically. I hate people who flat out lie. I adore spending time with my family, because I know they won't be there forever. I hardly ever wear jewelry, if I do that means I planned my outfit the night before. I'm excited about being a teacher. I love to read almost everything. I hate missing people. I love old movies. Starbucks is my best friend. I firmly believe that I live my life without regrets, things happen for a reason. One quality of myself I dislike, I give my opinions way too honestly sometimes. I'm a random person. Smile and Be happy.



Forgiveness…… & Moving On.

I’m horrible at this blogging thing. I have way too many thoughts in my head. And I’m not even sure if I want to even write them down. But for now, this has been the main thing that I keep thinking about.

Forgiveness. & Moving On.

I can pretty much forgive everything. But moving on, forgetting, letting go, whatever you want to call it, is THE hardest things I have to do in my life. I have ended holding on to things for years that are so small, I ended up ruining the friendship. I’m not sure if this a part of me for the rest of my life, or if it a part of growing up.

A lot of my friends don’t understand why it takes me so long to get over something. I’d like to look at them and scream, “I don’t know, and I wish I did.” But normally I say, “it is because I just care so much about the person, I want the best for them.” But I don’t think that is always true. Because things bother me when I barely know someone. Maybe I naturally care deeper about people more than I’d like to admit that I do.

This is a really random blog. But someone today got mad at me because of this trait I have.


getting ready for freed.

Physically speaking, it’s just some packing, and saying my goodbyes for now, but emotionally I have to prepare myself to be ready for a semester, that I am hoping will be great. I hoped for the same thing last semester, but I’ve learned that if you hope for something physical, more than likely God will not give you that. So this semester is different. I’m hoping for a relationship with Him, I have one, but it’s not that great of one. I feel like sometimes I am Bi-polar when it comes to Christ and my relationship with Him. One day I am on fire for Him, and the next day I’m thinking, ah I’ll pray later, I’ll work on that later. But it should be now. Not later. And that is why my blog is called hope. I’m hoping for a better everything. And that starts with Him.

“ Other things may change us, but we start and end with family